Chocolate Box 2018

[prodigy]

Hello, generous Chocolate Box writer! Thank you so much for writing for me; this is my first Chocolate Box and I'm very much looking forward to it. :D I don't really hang out on DW, but I can be found on AO3 at prodigy. I'm including fandom-nonspecific likes and dislikes here, but if you're interested in more of my general tastes you can find previous exchange letters under my Yuletide tag.

Likes:

- Angst, drama, and conflict
- Personal history; characters that know each other incredibly well, whether they would like to or not
- Fraught power dynamics
- Hurt/comfort
- Happy, unhappy, and bittersweet endings (depending on the pairing)
- Enemies to lovers, lovers to enemies, and iterations of this process
- Noncon and dubcon (depending on the pairing)
- Rough sex
- Unresolved sexual tension
- Canon-divergent AUs
- Time loops
- Family and group dynamics

DNWs:

- Unrequested ships
- Ritualized/modern/"safe" BDSM (safewords, etc.)
- Underage sex
- Genderbends or gender headcanons
- Setting AUs (college, coffeeshop, historical, etc.)

MCU - Loki/Thor: These awful brothers! I will ship them in hell. I love how they are both tremendously flawed people from a tremendously flawed upbringing -- although, uhh, one of them certainly more than the other -- but more than anything I'm into Thor's boundless, stubborn patience with Loki, mixed with his desire to keep him from doing bad things and set him on the straight and narrow. Loki is deeply bitter, troubled, and petty, to say the least, but Thor is willing to weather all manner of his bullshit lashing-out because he's his little goddamned brother and he will love him forever. Plus they're a wonderful team, whether they (Loki) admit it or not, and they understand each other better than anyone else in the world. Porn-wise I like rough sex, desperation, sex crying, and basically anything in the vein of "Thor rails Loki until he forgets his own name."

I'm into happy endings for this pairing; I'm not into noncon/dubcon (things that superficially look like noncon/dubcon are great, just so long as they both actually want it and love each other).

Star Wars Prequel Trilogy - Obi-Wan Kenobi/Anakin Skywalker: Oh God, the tragedy! I should be upfront that I am like, 75% into Obi-Wan/Anakin for the tragedy potential and misery--and 25%, though a significant 25%, for their camaraderie and warmth and what a lovely partnership they are until, of course, they're not. For this pairing I would be into either in-timeline fic or canon-divergent AU -- from "things don't go quite as badly" (Anakin doesn't fall to the Dark Side, etc.) to "things go as heinously badly as they could possibly go" (Vader!Anakin takes Obi-Wan [and Luke and Leia?] prisoner). But I have a hard time imagining things going well for them. I love Anakin's impulsiveness and his volatility and his shitty life and his desire to do well by the people he loves and how badly he fails at it; I love Obi-Wan's genuine love for him and his commitment to his Jedi faith and his difficulty reconciling the Anakin he loves and wants to exist with the Anakin that exists. Porn-wise I like angst and aggression and desperation; I would be into time loops and depressing fuck-or-dies.

I'm more into depressing and bittersweet endings for this pairing; I could be sold on noncon and dubcon, if Anakin is at a sufficiently messed-up place.

Lymond Chronicles - Francis Crawford/Richard Crawford: These other awful brothers! I will also ship them in hell. The Crawfords' history is such that it takes a very small number of years to sink their relationship into a profound mire of antagonism and misunderstanding. I prefer them when they're at their nadir, in The Game of Kings, when Richard is the most jealous and self-righteous and wounded and Francis the most cryptic and unavailable--but if you're interested in an AU where Richard figures more into the plot of Pawn in Frankincense or The Ringed Castle, I'd also be into that! I prefer not to shy away from the ugly power and animosity disparity in their relationship: Richard is much older and much more aggressively antagonistic, though Francis always does seem to get the upper hand, doesn't he? I'd be interested in a fic that preserves this, or perhaps lets Francis miscalculate: either way. I am also interested in them making up, but in a hard-won way. Porn-wise I am so here for bitter antagonism and cruelty, emotional and physical.

Given all this, it probably goes without saying that I'm into noncon and dubcon here. However, I prefer bittersweet or hopeful endings for them.

Fate/Zero - Gilgamesh/Kotomine Kirei: Sometimes what a remarkably horrible person needs in their life is another remarkably horrible person! Actually, I'm interested in the differences between them and the non-equivalencies as much as I am the terrible things they have in common: in the disjoints between the modern and ancient world, in the dullness and emotional distance in Kirei's personality, in Gilgamesh's shallowness and vanity as well as his lofty godlike unreachability; they're a match made in hell but they're also kind of a terrible match. I like the idea that they love each other after a fashion, but very much "after a fashion": inasmuch as Kirei loves anything, and inasmuch as Gilgamesh is willing to love anything that's not Enkidu. I also like the idea of them shittily trying to function in the modern world, which they are both bad at for different reasons. They suck morally, but they also just suck. Porn-wise I'm into sadomasochism -- particularly Kirei's brand of sadism -- and violence and also silly OTT goth fucking on altars and such.

... This is definitely a noncon/dubcon pairing, it involves Kirei. My preferred tonal flavor for them is probably bittersweet.